Nova's Nonsense

Someday I wanna format this page like a newspaper but for now it's a standard blog lmao.

2024 - 09 - 25

I keep feeling this bizarre sense of urgency even though right now I have the least responsibilities that I have had in a long time. I keep feeling rushed to take the GED test, get my driver's license, and get a job even though none of this is at all urgent. It's like I can't relax because I feel guilty about not being productive. I probably should clean but other than that my only "productivity" would be working on my hobbies which I have been doing.

I've actually picked up quite a few hobbies recently and I'm thinking about getting into sewing. (Handsewing, I don't have a sewing machine.) Might start working on a patch jacket again but I mostly feel inspired to make clothes from scratch. I've always always always loved fashion design and I've designed many things but haven't sewn them.

I really should clean. But it's so overwhelming. I'm so overwhelmed. I have an orthdontist appointment in January that I am dreading because I didn't wear my retainer for a month and it doesn't fit now and I feel like I'm drowning in guilt about it. I feel like that with cleaning too but the retainer is stressing me out extra because I know my mom would be mad at me so I haven't told her that it doesn't fit.

Overall, I am tormented by both my utter lack of responsibility and the fact that I'm failing at the couple responsibilities I have.

2024 - 09 - 24

Recently I've been getting back into my kandi hobby and I have made so much stuff!! Might take some pics and add them to my art gallery. I started making kandi again because I brought bracelet-making stuff for the car ride to the concert I went to! The concert was fantastic! I felt kinda awkward but it was still very fun! And very very cool!!!

I also started watching Hannibal with my brother recently! He's watched it a ton but I had never seen it before. We just finished season 1 and OH. MY. GOD. WHY. why why why why why why why.

I think I'm gonna sign up for the lip-sync competition at my town's festival in like 3 weeks but I need to put together choreography. And a costume. To do drag or not to do drag, that is the question... (Obviously doing drag is the correct answer.)

I feel like recently I've been laying around doing nothing all day, maybe I should try to make more progress on this website. Like... actually making shrines... /lh

Or maybe I should start meditating... my brain is chaos... /hj

It's almost like I have diagnosed ADHD... /sar

So many things to do and so little time all the time in the world.

2024 - 09 - 03

Been playing tons of Fields of Mistria!! I love it so much!! I also attempted streaming on Twitch recently as a PNGtuber but my internet sucks and I don't have a good screen setup yet so that's kinda on hold. I watched Our Flag Means Death yesterday, finally! And! AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!! /POS :DDDDD

The past couple weeks I've also been messing around with Godot Engine and game development. Don't really know what I'm doing with it yet but it's a nice hobby! My little sibling always talks about making games so I've been trying to get them into it but I'm starting to question whether or not they are actually interested in gamedev because they're acting like it's a chore? I don't know.

I need to make some shrines here but I've been putting it off because idk how I want to format them. I'm thinking kinda collage-like because I love collaging but I'm still not sure how to approach it. Maybe I'll do physical collaging and then scan them on my printer and use those as the background image for the shrines. My printer can be kinda weird but ig it's worth trying lmao.

I feel like I have a million hobbies that I'm rapidly cycling through at all times. Unmedicated ADHD? Or will this still happen once I'm medicated? I may be doomed to the short attention span life. My brain may explode.

If I can get streaming work then I'll eventually link my Twitch here like I did with my Tumblr! Also considering YouTube videos about the games I'm playing but I might also make a separate blog page for my video game rambles!

2024 - 08 - 11

I watched Good Omens and I am devastated. New (devastating) obsession. I need to watch the new season of Umbrella Academy. I also got tickets to a Freaks On Parade concert! Gonna be my first ever concert! Haven't listened to Alice Cooper or Rob Zombie much but my little brother does and I wanted to go with him lmao. I've also been playing a lot of Sims 4 lately, decided to start playing with the townies and started with the BFF household.

I wanna work on making shrines for here but I'm not really sure how to go about it. I also keep procrasinating adding RSS to this blog even though it probably isn't that hard. Though, before working more on this website I probably need to prioritize getting ready to take my GED. Band stuff didn't work out but that just means literally nothing is holding me back from getting the fuck out of highschool now.

Speaking of "band", my brother and I are talking about making music together but we have no idea where to start lmao. He has an electric guitar and I play piano & drums however, I don't have a drumset, just 3 snares lol. Also being indecisive about genre due to differing music tastes but we're determined to make it happen.

I'm thinking for this blog I'm gonna try to update it atleast once a week as like a journal. Hello, future me! lmfao

2024 - 08 - 05

I have been so sick the past week or so :[ finally getting better cause I got antibiotics. (The pills are pink & blue lmao, transgender amoxicillin.)

I'm working out taking online college classes and I got a GED test prep book from the library even though I did great on the practice test. Gonna put off getting my GED for a semester though so I can do band at my local highschool for a bit longer lmao. After that I'm gonna miss band but I am so done with highschool it'll be worth it.

Other than that, I've been obsessing over Disco Elysium recently! And I finished my drawing of Ghoulia Yelps (Monster High) that I sketched out 2 months ago lmao. Maybe I will draw Kim Kitsuragi and/or ✨Miss Oranje Disco Dancer✨ soon!

2024 - 07 - 27

I've been making good progress on this website. I still wanna get around to my shrines and fleshing out my blog but so far I've been doing good at fleshing out this site. I wish I had more zines and art to add but ig I'll get there eventually lmao. I also wanna add more to my Cool Sites and Graphics pages. And I want a better looking guestbook. Hopefully I can also add some webrings eventually lol.